I was enjoying the cold weather of Pune, outside my office with a cup of tea, joined by a new team mate when suddenly the question of my marriage popped up.
" I have recently married" i said.
My team mate A. was a 28 year old. A few months ago he had proposed a girl 4 years younger and was enjoying a blissful committed status. Ofcourse he was a virgin and had a very little taste of womanhood save for the few smooches his girlfreind was allowing him every week.
" How is the sex between you two" he asked me.
" Its great. Why do you ask" i said.
He blushed with the thought.
"Hmmm... well...hmm... i was thinking... no actually my girlfreind...hmmm.. well we wish to have sex but we both are scared to have it. What should i do? That is the reason i want an advice from you."
My mind raced back around two years ago when my beloved and i were in the same shoes. And now here was i, giving advice to my fellow team mate 3 years elder to me, a person who had no idea whatsoever about the act of divinity.
"Why do you wish to have sex so early in your relationship?" i asked.
" Well... actually its my girl friend who wants it. She feels giving me what i desire would make me committed to her" he replied.
"Thats bad... probably she still doubts your fidelty rite?"
"Yes... she does...How do you know?"
Well that put a smile across my face. I knew sex at a time when the girl still has some reservations about her man would just be disastrous.
"I suggest wait for some time. Understand she does not want sex but saying so just out of an obligation to keep you happy and satisfied. Even if you do it, it will hardly give you any pleasure"
"So when should i have it" he asked.
Suddenly my mind raced back again on the day i first had sex with my girl. The previous day was great. Both our parents had met each other over lunch and had consented to our decision to get married.
It was gloomy motel room i was staying in and my sweetheart made an early morning visit and i made my first mistake. With my eyes full of lust i asked her for sex. Unfortunately she consented to it though she was absolutely not ready for it.
Things finished faster than we expected. I had fulfilled my long awaited desire but it appeared as though it was just another session of masturbation. I was tired, sweating and watching my woman's nakedness. She had a disappointed look on her face and my selfishness did not even bother about this because i just could not take my eyes away from her beautiful body.
"How did it feel" i asked her.
"I did not feel a thing except for pain".
Her reply startled me. What a fool i made myself then i thought.
What a fool i was not to think about her while making love. What a shameless, selfish fool was i. When i was basking in the glory of my triumph over her body why did not i think about her. Pleasure!! why should it be a feeling only men deserve why not a woman.
